Meltdown Continued

This is an update to a long delayed blog( a long one!):

Realty seemed more unreal to me then when I was in an unconscious state at the hospital from Feb. to March.
Most people think that they're going crazy because they confuse hallucinations with realty. I soon realized the difference between the two when I saw El Greco's painting, "View of Toledo" on my hospital room's wall. I mentioned to the nurse that it was one of my favorite paintings. She replied that they didn't have El Greco's painting on the wall. I looked again and sue enough it wasn't there. I realized that it was a hallucination.

I then had several more.

I thought I was reading a newspaper, when I tried turn the page the newspaper vanished. The same thing happened when I thought I was reading a movie magazine.
Instead of getting freaked out about this, I realized that I could have fun with hallucinations. I mentioned to a nurse that I saw some escaped laboratory rats scurrying across the floor. She told me that the hospital didn't have any laboratory rats and she asked me why I thought they were laboratory rats. I told her it was because they were all wearing white coats and started laughing like a lunatic.
The nurse didn't realize I was making a joke. I felt that it was a sign that I wasn't going crazy because I could make a joke about hallucination. But the nurse was convinced that I was in fact a lunatic.

"Hell is other people."

This is a quote from the French philosopher Jean-Paul Sartre( I think) the best describes the real lunatics who shared my hospital ward. They all had certain peculiarities.
One was a Japanese-American who seemed possessed with notions of utopian societies and talked endlessly about them. He seemed to be a guru of sorts who had quite a following. There seemed to be a constant stream of university age young people who visited his bedside to listen to his diatribes.

One day when my dear Chizuko was paying me a visit I asked her what he was going on about. She replied that he kept on talking about money.
One time he invited a group of his followers to his hospital room, for discussion session. What caught my attention was an American girl saying that she went through hell growing up in the farming community of Yuba City, California.
I was of the opinion that listening to her snot-nosed b.s. was far more hellish.
I just wanted to read my book(the written word had ceased the "vanishing point" by then).

Hell was, for me, being in a room in which all the other patients talked in their sleep-, for hours. Keeping me awake. It was like being a room filled with "motor-mouthed somnambulists".
One particular loony would get out of bed and search the hospital room for something or someone, I don't know which. All I knew for sure was I couldn't sleep at night. I told the nurses and doctors that this, not an ammonia imbalance was making me crazy. The next day they moved me to another, quieter room.

"Angels of Mercy".

The up-side of my experience was the great nurses.
They were all cheerful and understanding.
One nurse whose main duty was drawing blood samples was always smiling.
When she drew the blood samples she never cause any pain or discomfort and never left a syringe mark.
My favorite nurse was Mika who seemed incapable of saying a sentence without saying "Thank you". She liked to talk to me about the books I was reading and about food. She was also a big movie buff. I tried to get her to say a sentence in English without saying "Thank you". I said "Mika, when a person says Thank you to you, your answer would be You Are Welcome." Mika said "So I say you're welcome when they say Thank You."
"That right"
"That' right? .......Thank you!"

When one is hospitalized for a long time(5 weeks in my case) one notices certain quirks in nurses behavior or mannerisms. There was one nurse i saw everyday who introduced herself to me every time I saw her. I'll never forget that her name was "Marie". I always wondered if she had a deep fear of someone forgetting her name.

Only one anxiety was sometimes in the back of my mind. The previous time I spend a long duration in a hospital was when I had to have my knee rebuilt in Portland, Oregon.It was during the 1972 Olympics when the Israeli Olympic team was taken hostage and killed by terrorists. This time while hospitalized in Tokyo, The World Baseball Classic was being televised. I would sometimes be reminded of the 1972 Olympic tragedy.
A lengthy stay in a hospital is a good way to think about many things and to get a new perspective on one's life. I do miss those "Angels of Mercy" a lot.

Thank You!

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